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As I'm sure has been pointed out to you, if the same scenarios keep playing out with you and mental health pros, the odds that they're all screwed up/unprofessional in the same ways diminish with each additional one of them involved. One bad T, sure. 2 bad T's in the same way? Hmm. 3? Very hard to believe.
Maybe there's a communication problem. Maybe the way you talk about some of the issues--cutting, suicidal feelings, etc. come across as more serious or "different" somehow than they usually hear, so they think you're in worse shape than you really are and then you get kicked around. Obviously, there's a lot going around that you don't have the room to tell us, but how about trying to talk to one-1-one T solidly for a while not as a regular T to get therapy per se with, but to talk about why you have so many problems with the system, like maybe the lingo and style you use sets off alarms with T's and pdocs that aren't on the mark. Like my comments about talking about suicidal feelings. Or to help point out patterns in the situations without himself having to be part of the big pile of T’s trying to treat your life/mental issues. Someone not invested in “taking care” of you per se like a regular T.
Maybe some of that could be pointed out by someone who's just dedicated in the short-term to give you feedback and insight into what T's and pdocs think when they hear you express your thoughts so you can conform--ugly concept, but necessary sometimes--a bit communication-wise and not get things turned around unnecessarily. I've needed help from an outside expert to help me understand the way I was coming across in a T's eyes--without me being wrong or at fault; just my natural instinct to explain things in a less than ideal way that interfered with my care.
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