Long before we learned we were DID and began to get help we would get horrible depression in our birth month and around all holidays. For us we later learned the people who abused us did especially horrid stuff to us at special times in the year. They ruined all holidays for us for about 40 years or more and we have gotten better enough to tolerate holidays, but I still like any day that is not a holiday better than a holiday. at least we don't want to die anymore at birthday time and holidays.

Eventually it will get better and not hurt so bad at these times of your personal year. It would be something to talk to your T about if you have one. I am sorry it is hard for you.

Leslie and her pixies