Thank you so much Sharon, that means a lot. I find it hard to believe I'm brave, what with the way I've coped with it (self harm, ED etc).

I did press charges... he came into college a few weeks later. One of my closest friends was in the same class as him and he was jumping for joy at how he'd gotten away with it. My friend (Meekey), called me and I missed the call, but went into the canteen and saw her in tears. I knew something was wrong. Very wrong. I asked her what it was and she blurted "He got away with it!! The f*cking w*nker got away with it!! HOW THE ***** DID THAT HAPPEN!!!!!??????"

I was too shocked to say anything... I hugged her and then just burst into tears... Everyone crowded around me, and HE walked past, laughing at me. I glared at him and almost ran over and beat the crap out of him. I'm not violent, but he made me WANT to be violent towards him. So yeah. He knew before I did that he'd got away with it.

And guess what??? Two WEEKS later, the officer in charge of the case came to me and told me he'd gotten away with it!! Just when I'd started to calm down about it!! He told me I "didn't look like the type of person to have been raped with the 'trenchcoat thing and such'" WHAT THE *****!!!!! Sorry. I'm so angry about it. HIM and the police have wrecked my life!They've never taken me seriously. When i got raped the first time, whe i got raped the second time, when my Adoptive Mother tried to strangle me... Why don't they ever take me seriously?? Even when I was in tears to them!

It's not fair... He got a restraining order for a while, don't know if it still stands, but he wasn;t allowed within 10ft of me or something.. but he still walked as close to me as possible in college...

Heh. I hate him.