This is probably a very typical response to look at things very analytically and very dispassionately. My dad never touched me inappropriately, however, I believe that he was inappropriate one time when I was about 9 years old. It involved putting my sister and I up on the bathroom counter in front of a large mirror and 2 mirrored medicine cabinets which created a three dimensional image after we got out of the bath and sprinkling powder on us as he asked us to turn around. I knew at the time that something about this was not right, but could not put my finger on it. I know that this memory bothers me when I think about it. The only thing that I am angry about with respect to this incident is that it caused me to be hypervigilant in being appropriate at all times with my two girls, now grown. In other words, it took away some of my joy at being a mom. I don't even know how I should feel about all of this. Would there be any benefit to discussing this with my dad or should I let this stay at rest?
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