hello all i am in need of your vast and exprienced opions.

i am diassocative...
i found a place in florida, i am tennessee, that specailzes in dissacccative... its in house... 3 weeks min very harsh tho not a lock down facility.. no caffeene, no tv, no music, no computers and no outside reading, and no medication.

they want me to detox off all my meds ...

this includes tegratol, navane, xanax and pain medication for my back... i can keep the paxil.

well i dont have a shrink.. i hated my old shrink and quit him awhile ago.. my pdoc has me on these meds... i have tried to get in touch with him for 3 days now with no sucess.

i have thought about going into st marys for medical detox... it will be harsher yet... they are a dual diagnosis facility.. not used to someone not going back onto meds...

i am afraid... very afraid... i am also agoraphobic.. so all this time away from home has me anxious... they wont let me smoke there... and that seems to be my final straw... i cant go there...

so i am on my own to pull of these meds...
or should i
maybe i should find a local tharpist first
i dunno...

this is all so hard...
help please...