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turquoisesea · Apr 09, 2009, 11:01 PM

Erm I guess I thought here would be the place to post this...

I've been having a lot of trouble lately with dreams seeming too real... I'll wake up but not enough to know where I am and start going crazy. I'll also get triggered by something, and flash straight back to it. Memories take over my presence of mind and I just go nuts... often someone else comes out after a while but is there anything I can do to ... snap out of it or something?

Thanks everyone
~turquoisesea

examples
Warning: TRIGGERS below PLEASE be careful, you don't have to read this I wanted to get it out-
~today I just kept repeatedly bringing objects under the covers with me, or the two cats we have here, I think I was looking for my cat who is no longer here and I couldn't find her and I kept looking and looking -which makes no sense now but I couldn't get past that in the moment and I kept crying and wandering and wandering...
~in one dream someone was kissing me... a stranger and I wanted gone... and I became half awake and starting whacking myself over and over... (no I don't think I was abused in that way, just a dream)
~a few times I got triggered into my fear of hospitals and we kept seeing what we thought could happen to us if we got sent in there... I then start fighting the non existent forces, try to hide, hit myself

When these things happen, I go crazy, I fall to si urges, ... sometimes other parts come out and take care of things, that's how it's gone so far but when I , ME am here it's crazy.
I'm afraid I'll hurt the ones around me, I'm afraid I'll hurt myself more...