Have you ever felt so alone and like no-one cares?
People say life is what you make it!
Jeez if i had my way i wouldn't want to make my life in this big black hole that i'm in.
I hate this hole, i hate everything about it, the thoughts, feelings, EVERYTHING!!!
It's almost as if days go bye i'm becoming more lonely than ever.
The thoughts crossing my mind well lets just say there not wise ones.
By this i mean i'm seriously thinking about staying in my room and hidinh away from the world, from what life is throwing at me.
As i sit here crying trying to write my thoughts and feelings out do you think i can? NO, its all just too mixed up.
Am i Artha or am i Martha?
People say only i will know but i don't know. I'm so confused i don't know what to think or feel anymore.
Life isn't ment to be easy they say bu jeez is it ment to be this hard???
Am i doing the right thing if i isolate mysel?? Will i cope?? I'm over so many questions, but no answers.
I can't isolate because i won't cope but jeez why can't i just talk about what is bothering me!! WHY??
How is it soooo hard to say how your feeling and what your thinking??
Me is because i don't know what i'm feeling or thinking so how can i say when i dont know myself.
What is happening to me??? I dont understand, i'm sick of being the lost little girl.