Smile at them? Go to them? Shake their hands as well????? Wish them well?? Gosh! How does one do this? I'm going to die a thousand times inside of me.
Truth is...I don't wish them well. I wish them nothing. I don't care about them but I really hate his happiness. He doesn't deserve it! Why does he get to have happiness yet I'm left to live a life alone?
I am not good at acting guys. Even if I do try to sell this image, of me being "ok" with everything and their happiness and of me leading such a happy and interesting life......HE will not buy it! He knows me too well.
First of all I won't be able to look at them in the face. I cannot bare to look at his face. So how will I go there and say "hello"?
Second, I am not capable of pretending to be happy. My face, especially my eyes always betray me. People that know me always comment on this, that my eyes always show what I feel.
I need an "Oscar-winning-performance" of me being just so happy in my new life without him and that I couldn't be luckier for being on my own rather than with him. How do I do this?