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My T told my mom i had a future. My T told my mom he communicates with me in between sessions unlike his other patients.
This should make me feel good right?
It doesn't.
i am so depressed, OVERWHELMED by it.
What future is he talking about? i have no future. i am 43, live with mom, on disability, have no job, no relationships irl, romantic or friendships, no career in sight, no more school, so aspirations whatsoever. That is not going to change. How is that a future? What is he talking about??????
And doing special stuff for me--communicating with me unlike other patients--just makes me feel pressured. That and that he thinks i have a future (whatever that means) overwhelms me, makes me feel like i am going to disappoint him BIG TIME.
i don't know what he expects of me. i just want him to keep me alive.
i want to tell him---Just leave me alone. But please don't leave me.
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I love your faults because they are part of you and I love you. --my BFF
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