See that's what I have always thought too. I am pretty good about staying emotionless when it comes to decision making. If I have questions I look him straight in the eye and ask him. I would have dumped him in 2 seconds but we have such a positive history. we fight a lot but it's not like I end up in dispair he's like my even match

He wrote me this and read it to me before he came clean:

Maggi over the last few weeks I have come to appreciate everything you do for me and not because of the actions but because of what they stand for, you are my best friend and the love of my life. I started to write you a letter last week after hearing pastor’s message on couples, so that I could in some small way tell you the way I truly feel about you. I think that you are the most wonderful person I have ever known and I would do anything to know that you are truly happy. I could not imagine my life with you not in it, and just the thought of not having you in my life brings tears to my eyes. I can be bad at showing you how much I truly care but I do notice and remember every very small thing you do for me like, keep me out of trouble or the big things like drive home from school just so that I can see you in the morning. Every moment I am with you is better ONLY because you are there. I know when we started dating that I said I love you very soon and this scared you but I can tell you anything and you are there to lend me a hand or to encourage me in any way that you can. I can proudly say I am a totally different person today then I was when we started to date because of what I have learned from you. When my mom asked the other day if you were “the one” I wanted to tell her there was no doubt in my mind, and that forever is not long enough as long as I have you. Only because of you I see what I can become and you are the great woman who has lead me there. With you by my side I have no fear or doubts about what tomorrow brings because you are my greatest treasure. Before I met you I had plans to see the world, own my own company, and live life to the fullest but now I could never even imagine doing anything without you by my side. I no longer dread becoming an adult, having kids, or even growing old because I will always have you and all of those things sound so wonderful when I add you in the picture. You are the girl that every guy dreams of at night when he hopes for the perfect women you are very smart not just book smarts but a quick and independent, you are classically beautiful the kind of girl that looks good no matter if you just got out of the pool or a big night on the town. Pastor told us last week never to compare your mate to anyone but I have never found this to be a problem because there is no one I have ever found that I care so much for, not even my own family. Only because of you have I even began to speak to my family and began to forgive them for what I felt they have done to me. Every day I am with you I am a better person then the last, I need you in my life Maggi that’s all there is to it.

It's sappy and long but I am going into a people-driven industry, I've learned to read people and he's so ashamed of himself (as he should be). If he didn't seem sincere he would be gone and I wouldn't need advice.