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My counsellor once told me that depressed people often have a hard time seeing their futures -- either they think that the outlook is always bleak (as I did) or they are incapable of seeing anything for themselves at all. Maybe your therapist is just seeing what you can't, right now. You DO have a future as surely as you have a present and a past, no matter what you do with it. There's hope in that. It means that the same agonizing moment is not going to drag on forever. Maybe you'll feel the same tomorrow as you do today, and maybe you'll feel the same the day after that, but at least it will be a new day and you have something to look forward to. And if you can't look forward, then don't, because the future is going to come and take your hand and eventually guide you away from all this pain. That's what I think the therapist means. You won't be letting anyone down because there is nothing more you can do than what you are doing now -- you are on the road to getting well, and eventually that road is going to lead you someplace beautiful. Have faith, you'll get there eventually.