Well I told T about all this. I did it at the end of the session. I didn't really know how to talk about any of it. He seemed really concerned about everything, plus my mood state bring very low. He was like you need to see me again very soon. He only see's ppl on fridays ( he has another job, has a private practice of just a handful of ppl ) But he's at a training for his main job next week and full the friday after that. So we'll see him again on the first of May. ( If I can keep it together until then )