Oh my gosh! That is unreal! I'm referring to what you said about your mom.

(your mother) "...always reminded me how much harder her life was than mine and that she was able to take it and not fall apart. It's my fault I suffer from mental health issues. She's better than me because she has been able to deny her mental health issues all these years and blame everyone else around her for her problems. I'm a weak, self pitying, crazy, cry baby who hates everyone, especially her. Poor her, to have a daughter like me."[/quote]

Woah. That is a really heavy load for you to have to carry. You poor dear (no sarcasm).

It occurs to me that with a mother like that, your brother probably has some pretty serious issues of his own, even if she treated him differently from the way she treated you. I don't know about you, but finding a way to feel some compassion about someone who has been abusive feels healing for me.

Sounds to me like you have an abusive mother as well as brother.

I don't know what the deal is with his wife and her attitude toward you, but it must feel like a betrayal.

I really do feel bad for you. It hurts. Your mother's negative messages are harmful, and also untrue. It makes me angry to think of it.

I'm thinking of you. Mental illness is not something anyone would ever wish for. It is not a weakness, an excuse, or anything else like that. How dare anybody belittle something that is so difficult and so serious! If you had diabetes or an amputated leg or something like that, I'm guessing your family would not give you such judgemental messages.

Guess that's all for now, but here's a hug