maybe the difference now is that you can see that im not much good at the moment - but I want you to know you are not alone in feeling disconnected - it wasnt until I started therapy that I truly realised how disconnected I am and maybe that is the start of getting better? no matter how long it takes - or how much work we have put in or are going to have to put in to get connected - I think it will be worth it - hang in there

and as for realising that you are not very different to when you started - I changed anti d's recently and the turmoil that came to the surface was the same as when I started my journey - so I suppose it shows the antid;s were having an effect but if its all still there does that mean therapy is not working... or probably I just have to work harder....

take care Chaotic13