I feel so utterly lonely. Like this hugh piece of me is just missing. When T asked me yesterday what was on my mind all I could say was their gone, their just gone. I just started shaking and I wanted to cry so very very hard and I just couldn't. I don't know how to talk about it, I don't understand what's happening, and I'm out here alone with no one to help me. I don't understand what's happening, I'm so very scared, hurt, lonely and no one can understand what's happening. IS this what 11yrs of therapy is, alone and sad? I don''''''''''''''''''t know