Thank you so much Lynnp,
It's a very complicated situation. I have suffered with anxiety for yrs now and this life I'm living has brought it back to a high ( before I could deal with the anxiety ) I dont want to fly and I'm jobless so I have no money to get home on...He told me "If I wanted to leave he wasn't going to help me " It's so uncomfortable living in his house and him not speaking to me...My son & I just walk around on eggshells. He's not abusive just we try to stay out of his way. I did have a job at one time but because we got into argument he refused to give me a ride and I lost it...I'm working on something and right now its looking pretty promising ...I will share when I know for sure it is going to work out.....Thanks again for your response...It helps to get opinions of others...I would never think I am perfect but I sure as heck don't diserve to live like this even if I am alittle messed up with my anxiety...I clean his house ,wash his clothes,help him with his too doo list, do all the grocery shopping so I kinda feel I'm trying to do my part...if only he would communicate..I just don't get it.