Right now, i feel like *****. i feel am worthless because i am always the clumsy one, the slow one, the one that does not deserved to be happy. i just want to disappear from this sadness. Sadness has become me and I dont know what is being happy anymore. Why me? why????? Why can't i be a normal 20 year-old enjoying life? Instead i am being consumed by this worthlessness. *tear and screaming out loud* I wish i could just sit by the corner of the room and scream and cry everything out of my system.