I use to explain to my T how "hearing" what she had to say was like being shot with arrows/shocked with electricity? It was so painful! It took me so long to be able to tolerate talking to her/that closeness. I saw her for 9 years (1978-1987) and then another 9 years (1996-2005) and consider the 9 years "in-between" as therapy too! So, it took me almost 30 years to heal!

Get that logic/head back in there working for you! I found it invaluable.