But it didn't fully descend and you did keep it together! Been there and done that :-) Had trouble just a couple days ago (and I'm "cured"). Recognize your strengths, Balrog! 30 years ago I use to have to grip my one hand with my other behind my back to keep from smashing my fist down someone's throat. Don't be afraid of yourself; you're wonderfully strong and just like you're that strong that you can control that amount of rage? YOU ARE CAPABLE OF THAT MUCH LOVE AND LOYALTY! It's a bit of a cliché, but like the Bible Psalmist says, we are "fearfully and wonderfully made".