Every time there is change in my life, whether it is good or bad, there is a bad reaction inside. I tend to lose more time and it seems like I am spending more time when I am out cleaning up messes made when I wasn't.

I have found for me that if I work to find time for inside, I do much better when I'm here and when I have to do things. Sometimes it only takes 30 minutes or so for my brain to settle down (sometimes it takes forrrrevvvverrr). During those times, I rarely remember it but I often still get the benefit afterward. Some of the things I do is get out playdoh, crayons, paper, coloring books, books for all ages, etc. Sometimes I will put on a nice movie or just sit with a soft blanket and a stuffed animal and stare out the window. I even have a little sand box that I play in. I have found that sand is very soothing.

I try to schedule times where I don't have to be somewhere an hour later because sometimes I am gone for a while. I have to be in a place where if I check out, I am okay.

I don't know if that will help or not but maybe you can try it? Also for me, I have found that if I stick with it, regardless as to how much more I lose time or how hard it is, things eventually settle down inside.

Maybe give it some time, knowing that change is hard, even when it's a positive change. If it turns out that it does not work for you, it doesn't mean you have failed. There are lots of things that don't work for people for a myriad of reasons. Please take good care and let us know how it goes. It's good to see you.