there has been debate over my diagnosis... bipolar and borderline are the top contenders... the only test I've had done in recent memory was a neuropsych exam, and the results from that hadn't come in 6 months later when I left the state. So here I am, 9 days out from seeing someone, and I am scared. I'm sliding into a pretty black period (who am I kidding... I'm already there, I think), much like the one that landed me in the hospital two years ago at Easter. They wanted to take the slow approach to everything... just loaded me up on anti-dpressants, and within 6 weeks, I was driving everyone around me away because I was, no pun intended, the exact opposite of what I had been when I ended up in the hospital- I was going a mile a minute, constantly. My roommate moved out on me, I drove my boyfriend to the limits. I'm just terrified, that's all. I'm all alone here... my mom lives 45 miles away. I don't know anyone in this town, I lost my job. I don't know what to do.