Ok, I need an action plan I guess. I love action plans.
1) communication. No no to phone calls, I hate those, maybe another email after a few days, idk. I wanted to send one more email to T yesterday, but it would have been another childish ramble, this time an angry and ugly one, so I didn't.
2) to put the logical side of me back to work. Writing down this little stupid action plan actually helps a little bit. Doing some work stuff would help too i guess;
3) calm down the little part, who is panicking. No ideas how to do that other than to shout at it and ignore it. Blah...
4) To go the next appt. Even this thought puts me in dark ugly place, ugh...
My head hurts, I can't think clearly...