I'm sorry you are having difficulties with family. Have you considered going to therapy to work through these important issues? I highly recommend it. Therapy has been a wonderful thing for me, even in these few short weeks that I have been going.

Group therapy is also something to consider. Some great friendships can be achieved through group therapy.

Do you have any close friends? Or belong to a church for whatever religion you are? Speaking to a pastor may help too.

And, of course, there's also online groups. The people here have been wonderfully supportive....

I hope you find some peace in your situation. (( HUGS ))