Hey Horsecab!
I used to feel that way, until one day the pain was so great that i took a gun pointed at my head, and the bullet didnt come out, it was stuck!! so, i was soooooooooo pissed off, i mean, can you believe that? anyways, long story short: i had nothing lo lose right? so thats my motto now: help others, besides i got nothing to lose!!!
so, horse: sometimes you gotta grab your pain and shake it off of you and reverse it into a challenge, remember you got nothing to lose..hope it helps you too!!!