cryingchild, I am going through very similar feelings right now. I know I am getting better, and it is terrifying. I'll find that I go through a day feeling ok, then get so depressed and cry at night, even though I can't think of a single reason why.

I think everyone has their own reasons for this feeling. I know for me, a lot of it has to do with the fear that if I get better, then I will have to deal with life by myself, without the help from my therapists.

Anyway, just know that you are not alone in your feelings. And you are very definitely *not* stupid.

*hugs*
mj