Thanks Complic8ed. How do I stop these stupid negative self-beatings? I'm incredibly defensive right now -- totally out of character for me. One of my friends just IM'ed me asking if I want to go to yoga tonight with her and the first thought that popped into my mind was:
"she wants me to go because I'm so fat".

Wow -- she was just asking because it would be fun to do together, but it was surreal how quickly how defensive and negative my immediate reaction was.

I'm not usually like this -- what is wrong with me???