Junerain, you seem to be such a beautiful person and I do beleive you can find people in your path that will bring you what you need but I want to talk to you about the perspective from the mother's side. I am convinced you mother loves you, she might not be able to show you in the way you would like, but she loves you. I have two beautiful daughters that I love more than words can express but if you talked to them, they might describe me close to the way you described your mom and it hurts. It hurts because that is not the relationship I wanted with my daughters and lately I have come to realize that I raised them the way I was raised and the way I lived has taught me not to trust anyone and I passed that on to them, so when I have conversations with them about other people in their lives I sound very much like your mother but it is out of distrust of other people and beleiving that my daughters deserve the Best. I guess I have been rambling on but I wanted to share a bit of my mother/daughter relationship so you would understand that your mother does the best she can and she loves you.
You are a beautiful person and do not let your mother or anyone for that matter tell you otherwise!