My therapist told me that I dissociate. It usually comes on me as a Depersonalization thing. Like if I'm driving, I can't "feel" the steering wheel, or if I'm typing, I can't "feel" the keys. I can't drive on the highway because I dissociate and feel as if I'm losing control of the car.

I had my first dissociative episode when I was 12 years old. I was sitting in the school auditorium and the school orchestra was playing. All of a sudden, I couldn't move, couldn't speak, couldn't hear. I tried banging my foot on the floor. A teacher saw what was happening and let me leave, when I was able to move.

I didn't get a proper diagnosis of what it was until I was in my early 30's. I was afraid to sit in classrooms, afraid to go to the theatre or concerts. I never knew when IT would happen again. It really has messed up my life.