(((((((((((((everyone))))))))))))))

I hate this. I just want to rage and scream and cry and throw an absolute FIT against the depression! Why me? How come I can't get out of bed? How come I can't get up and get my day started? How come I can't concentrate or care or feel anything but guilt over the time I'm wasting? How come I had to get sick like this? How come I can't be NORMAL?

I want to curl up in a ball and hide from the world. I can't even get dressed. I was doing so well. I was feeling better, I was starting to hope again. And then, out of nowhere, I wake up yesterday and I feel awful. Today, I woke up and I feel no better. I keep trying to tell myself this feeling will pass, that it's not going to last forever and I'm going to be fine, but I can't! I can't I can't I can't! Life has gotten too hard. I feel so trapped by it all.