Hey there! I'm Ruby and 24 years old. I can see so many wonderful and interesting stories here, and I was hoping that someone out there would help me with my story. I know I am new to the site, but I am in such need of an opinion right now...

To make an EXTREMELY long story story short, I meet my boyfriend when we were 14 in a mental hospital and we had been friends for 3 years, then going out till now.

Neither of us have had great adventures in our abusive households, and we slowly began to imagine a new paradise together with just us and our new family. I was suggesting it to keep him going, but he became glued to it and would never leave my side...

... Well, he is VERY emotional and just recently began becoming very angry with himself. He has so many friends, a one day a week job, full time student at a college, and all the games and electronics one can hope for. But I have realized over a long period of time that he is, in some crazy way, spoiled with the people who felt sorry for him. He is not growing out of his boyish nature and refuses to find another job to help his parents pay for his food, water, and electricity. Well, his parents are crazy anyway, so that's fine by me.

The only thing is, I'm moving on and I want a professional career with what I love to do, and at first I wanted him with me, only now that he's acting like a 6 year old, I'm having second thoughts about being with him. I don't know what suddenly made him change, but he has been acting weird this past year, and just started stalking me when I lest expected it. He has not found a goal for himself and is suddenly fearful I am cheating on him.

He has NEVER hit me before, and at worst grabbed my wrist to keep me from turning away. When that happened, we separated for a while, and he went crazy and locked himself up in the hospital voluntarily.

Like I said, he is emotional. His latest act is screaming and crying while jumping up and down, then throwing himself to the ground and begging me not to go. That happened when I said I needed to be alone for the weekend to work on my school project!!! When I got upset, he became more insane and began slamming trees outside and punching holes through his wall.

I now desperately want him to move on, but my problem is not that I am not strong enough... my problem is that he IS suicidal, and has tried it in the past before (not when he was with me though). My problem is that if I leave him, he will most likely kill himself.

If there is anyone out there who has had any kind of similar experience or knows about these stories, I need your opinion on weather or not I might be able to leave him without his death haunting me, or what I should do to help change him. I never thought I would be trapped like this, but here I am. His family and friends already blame me for second guessing him. Unbelievable.

Please help! I will try to help you back! Thank you so much!!!