I'm going through a rough patch right now, and the worst part of it is that it doesn't matter that I'm on meds that are actually helping, it doesn't matter that two doctors have diagnosed me as depressed as well as my counsellor making me an outline of exactly which symptoms I was exhibiting ... what if it's not really depression? What if I'm just too weak and cowardly and useless to deal with my problems? What if I'm not trying hard enough?

I know it makes no sense but the thought won't go away. Does anyone get to thinking like that, and if you do, how do you convince yourself that you're not useless, you're ill? I think I used to be able to distract myself, but it's easier to tell yourself the depression is a liar when it's not actively lying to you and you're feeling slightly more confident. Now I've hit alow and all my confidence has gone right out the window. The thought has been coming back more and more, and even though I know, rationally, that I AM depressed ... what if I'm just so pathetic I can't cope with my uselessness?