Coming up on April 28th will be the 2nd anniversary of my cousin being killed in Iraq.
He was a medic with the US Army who was killed by a bomb as he was running to help a fallen comrade.
How unfair is that? He lost his life trying to save someone else's!!!

Anyway... at the first of this month, I started dreaming about him, and I would wake up ad realize that he was dead and (of course)
start or even worse, I have nightmares about him getting killed...

A few days ago, my mom called, my husband answered because I was taking a nap because I hadn't slept much the night before due to
nightmares about my cousin. My husband told my mom I had been having dreams about my cousin, and I started talking to her and she
asked what was going on, why I was having dreams, etc. I said, "I don't know unless it's because the anniversary of his death is coming up."

Her exact words to me were: "well I think it's sad and I hate it but you need to stop internalizing things like things like this and let it go."

How the hell am I "internalizing" it? People can't control what they dream!!! (can they???)
Is she right?
Why can't I let it go?
Why am I having nightmares? (possibly cause my hubby is a soldier?)