((((((((((((((Manda)))))))))))))))
Sorry to hear that you are having a rough time. I think there is often a very fine line behind great sadness, and great anger... sometimes it is hard to differentiate what we are feeling, and then we are just left feeling frustrated as I imagine you are. What options do you have available for you to relieve these intense feelings? Family/friends to talk to? Journaling? Distractions? I find the latter to be of most help to me...
Hope that you are feeling better soon,
Sending lots of positive vibes your way

Jacq