Hi CC,

Sounds like you've been through quite a bit lately. My appologies for my confusion. Were you anorexic at one time long ago?

from what you wrote and Im assumng thats a video of you maybe Im wrong . I got the sense you were just a binge eater all your life. Always over weight.

I didn't ever hate my body . CC. I wanted to look nice . but I didn't have hatred toword my body . I wanted to achieve a slimmer look . I felt horrible I was a slave to the eating. I just wanted the need to over eat to stop.

I never did starve . I was way to well over fed . I was down to 112 for a month maybe then around 125 to 130 . for a few years and just naturally went up in weight over the years . I guess by the nature of Bulimia the way I had it there was a feeling of satisfaction that was gotten rid off. and the hunger was subdued by the purging. I was trapped in the cycle . the shame is in having others know about it.

When I shared about being a form of self injury I meant injury to the INNER self not the physical self .

in sharing with others I have bulimia and the resulting comments from others has been injurious to my SOUL. my heart . my brain . .

I certainly want no one to see what Ive done in the past.

do they circualte alchoholics with thier head in a toilet? I doubt it .

not for national alcholol awareness.

. thats not for anyone to see . its no ones buisness . if they do not suffer from it. IMHO



Patricia