Things are getting worse - my new anti-d's arnt working or maybe they are making me more anxious - dunno - not sleeping - pdoc had me writing down how many times I wake in the night - last night 14 times - night before 12 - sooo tired.
Have T on thursday - have hung out for this - now dont want to go
dont want to tell her how crazy I have been recently - that stupid things have triggered me that never triggered me before - what a wimp! and that i didnt cope well
I somtimes say I feel like I stand at the edge of a storm that threatens to wipe me out - I feel that storm close by now and the closer it gets to T the worse it gets - it should be getting better but its not....
I dont know what to do....
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts 
its how many times you get back up! 
(Thanks to fenrir for my Picture 
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When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown,
Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly.
by Patrick Overton, author and poet