Hi,

The guy that I was dating for two months and then we broke up for three weeks or better to say that he got mad at me and he walked away....now, it's been couple of weeks that we are back together....but it's not like before....before, he used to call me everyday and now he hasn't called me since then....he just text message me or chat with me on gmail....he tries to keep his distance, I can see....he initated to be back together....well...I don't call him either....I don't like to be clingy....last week we saw each other Wed, Thu, Fri and Sunday!!! but Friday and Sunday we were at the dance club, it really doesn't count for me....however, Sunday he walked me home after the club....I dont' know I think he's trying to keep it cool, but I can't....I can't stop thinking negetively like if he's with somebody esle or whatever....although, I don't think he's with anybody else....but this clubing is making me sick....he dances with all girls and exchange phone number....we are 35 years old for god sack acting like teenagers....well....Sunday, I did the same, I gave my phone number to a guy and he saw it and he didn't say anything even....so strange....but I knew that guy from before, he's kinda friend, however, my boyfriend doesn't know that I knew him before....
I dont' know what to do with my emotional swings....he was looking into my eyes and I feel that he wants me....he's easy to read....
I know I got to wait and see how it goes....but it's killing me....
It feels that he's punishing me somehow....the other part, I was seeing that he was text messaging on the club and I know he's text messaging other girls, because he said at the end of the club....he told the other guy friend of us that "oh the other girls went to the other club"....I really dont' think I like this situation at all....I feel not going to the club anymore....it's really bugging me.....
I really need to have a partner, but I can't understand why it's like this....why it's so difficult to get close to another human being? why?
what should I do? how can I stay calm and relax? anxiety is killling me!

thanks for reading my PM
Marjan