Because I deserve it so much! I have only had a day to chill out, out of about... 11 days...

I hate myself. I don't deserve to be alive. I don't deserve to be cared about. I don't deserve to be happy. I don't deserve to be healthy. I don't deserve help. I deserve nothing.

I hate myself, everything about me.. I can't stand being this anymore. I can't stand being selfish anymore. I can't stand this. I just CAN'T STAND IT!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't knwo what to say, I'm a mess and I hate myself and I feel liek **** abd I shouldn't be here, I should shut my big gob.

People tell em to go to child protectiona nd such but how can I? I ahve no eveidence or anytihng and people wil.l not believe ame at all and theuy all just think I'm lying and they all heate me. Just like everyone else deos.

Sorry. i hate myself right now and I'm baw.ing my eyse out. I need to go calm down. Somehow. I dont know whats'; gonna hapenenp