Thanks again for all your responses...update.....Today I went to talk to someone about a job that I applied for some time ago.....he showed me around and gave me a uniform and before I knew it I was hired ! I'm alittle nervous but feel I can do it....More nervous about telling the b/f of what I went and did....so today, I come home and told him....well, he has been in his room ever since...and I'm sure we wont talk for a few days...really hurts because I thought he would be proud of me .....my stomach is so torn up and I'm almost thinking about not taking the job because I don't want to argue about it...I was wrong because I didn't tell him of my plans to go talk to this person ..but, him and I weren't talking for the past few days so I thought what would it hurt? ..I'm so confused ...alittle more info....I have a daughter who is due anyday now and she has been having some hard times...one of the reasons why I wanted to find a job was to help her out alittle because she has alot going on right now...by me working I wouldn't have to ask the b/f to help her out ....I feel so bad as a mother to not be able to help her out....not looking to support her but just help her with alittle money from time to time....he doesn't have children so I don't expect him to understand ...I just really feel lost.......sorry for going on about this ....thanks for listening....