hello luvlittlebit and welcome to pc. beads has a suggestion that may help.

this may sound dumb, but like iffen you get a good heavy rubberband and put it around your wrist, then pull on the rubber band and let it snap every time you think about wanting to cut.............T gived us this idea and it helped because it inflicted just enough pain to take care of the numbness and make the pain on the inside (our heart) go away.

sending positive thoughts and warm fuzzies your way,

beads