SambaKicks,
You have assured people here that you will call the hotline, and mentioned that going to the Baker act facility is what you will probably have to do...

No trained counselor on a hotline would make fun of your speech pattern. They will work with you in every way possible.
Others call the hotline with their own speech problems of different kinds...

Give yourself the birthday gift that keeps giving--a new life with less pain.
You can make the decision to ease your pain by accepting the help that is available to you.
Easy? No.
Worth it? Yes.

There is only so much support we can give you here...IRL there are people more than willing to help you.
Our support and caring are valid and solid, but we cannot take the place of a therapist or any medical professional.

Please seek the help that is available to you, find resources that will help you, and try to understand that your depression is making you feel badly...but that you will feel better.

Posting here is a first step, take the next step of getting help in real life.

Peace,
Cap