Hey RonnieVae

Welcome to PC! I'm very sorry to hear about the troubles you are having with your boyfriend. I am also in a long distance relationship and have several issues with insecurities myself, so I can understand what you are going through. The positive self-talk, saying to yourself that he is with you because he wants to be, and such sounds VERY corny. Trust me, I know. But it's true. Especially for long distance relationships. Those take more time, effort, energy, and understanding than close proximity relationships. I highly doubt that any boy would put up with a long distance relationship with a girl he wasn't crazy about. So, my best advice right now is to keep talking to him, letting him know whats on your mind. But, most importantly, talk to yourself!! Keep telling yourself that he WANTS to be with you, and that he cares about you. Eventually, you will begin to believe what you are actually saying.

Something that I find helps me when I am upset with my boyfriend, for whatever the reason, is to sit down and write, physically write out by hand, letters to him. I dont ever send him these letters, or even show or talk about them. I simply vent all my feelings and concerns. Once I get everything out on paper in front of me, I can reread them and begin to really think about my emotions. My emotions are valid -- everyone's are, emotions aren't controlable, but it helps me understand them, and it keeps me from saying things to my boyfriend before I've really thought about them. By addressing a fake letter to him, I still feel like I'm communicating with him, and it helps with the anxiety and stress.

So, I realize I'm rambling right now, and for some reason I can't help it, lol. I just feel for you. I understand that the past is a powerful tool that can often hurt us in the present if we let it. I let it get me all the time. I want you to know that you are not alone.

I hope you feel better; good luck with your medication!
Feel free to PM me anytime.
Best wishes,
Ro