(((notz)))

I feel the same way sometimes. Recently I've been feeling sad and angry that yes, I've survived - and that alone is truly a HUGE accomplishment which we should not diminish - but how I wish I would start THRIVING!

I've been "surviving" all my 55 years now, and frankly I do get real tired sometimes of simply surviving. I yearn for thrive: to grow vigorously, to flourish, to prosper. I feel more like a little weed that you can't kill but never bursts into a full bloom of wonderful flowers.

Maybe someday, for both of us.