I really like what everyone has said. And I appreciate that you responded.
Minime, I'm not so hung up on the terminology as I am how lacking the terms are. Yes, I was victimized and yes, I survived. But now what? Survivor in recovery? Former survivor? Past survivor? Survived & loving it? Survived and still hating it! Isn't there a way to encompass it all in a forward moving way? Arrgggg...I have too many questions! Never a good place for me. Too many questions, the unanswerable kind. Too many tears, I hate crying like this.
I just need a job, anything to get me moving in a different direction.
Pegs, I appreciate your big ole' horse wings giving me hugs! Healing does hurt. New hurts hurt, too. It's just so overwhelming right now. And it's such a struggle to hold my head up too. I feel so depleted.
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I feel more like a little weed that you can't kill but never bursts
into a full bloom of wonderful flowers. :(
Well, Pom, didn't you hit the nail on the head with that one!!!I usually view myself as a noxious little weed that won't or can't go away while knowing I'm jamb packed with the capacity for beautiful flowers.
LizzyB, Thanks for understanding. Hope is a powerful place to be.
These are tough times.