(((notz))))))) dear one you wrote ((((Survivor of what? Why))))))))
You survived abuse. It may not feel like it, But you did . You are here. Yes it will take time. Like you said steps forward steps backwards. But your going to make it.
The why?.........no answer............except someone took avantage of you.
GO ahead and cry you are allowed that how you let it out.
Survivor means you made it .........
It means you may still have issues with it as you said you are,. But you are alive
and of course lots of questions. Keep asking them , I think thats how you work threw it.
Years ago I was abused, I do not talk about it much. Maybe not the same as you. As i never post about it, But i want you to know something. You my friend are not damaged goods. You are a person who matters to all of us here. Yes you may feel that way but in time hopfully that will pass.
P.S i always have enough kleenex when you need it


big hug to you (((((((((((((((notz)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))