I'm sry if this was the wrong place to put this.

I dunno, I'm just feeling like I'm a horrible person for feeling like this. But I can't tell anyone who knows me in real life because They'll talk and think me crazy. If I tell my school cousenler since I'm a minor she'll tell my parents. I know I probabley need help but I really cant tell anyone else. I don't want people to think bad of me, which is self absorbed.

I guess I feel like if I get assalted in some way people will be nice to me and talk to me more. I really dont have any friends from school and so I guess if something happened then I would get more attention from school. I get plenty from home I guess I just want more from school. WTH is wrong with me. I sound totally self centered. I guess I want to be more noticed?

Help?

Thanks for all the help. Hopefully I can get over this