Because I feel like I should because of being told that I should, all my life. I know I'm caring and that I love and care about, a lot of people. But then there are just some people that give me negative comments and because that's all I had when I was younger, it sticks for longer than what a positive comment does. I'm going to post more of what the 28 year old was messaging me with, later. She's had a lot to say to me.

I didn't hurt myself at all last night, which was a huge achievement because the 28 y/o really triggered me and got me really angyr and upset and stuffs so I almost ODed and stuff. Which was horrible. But I was talkign to Vicki at the time, so she helped me out and calmed me down.

I haven't found a T yet, but will be starting counselling at SWEDA.