It's compeletely backwards, I know. :/

I do feel responsible for others, like I'm ruining their lives a lto of the time. Even when i'm trying to help them.

I try not to let harmful people come within access to me. I find it hard, though. i feel I deserve to be hurt and stuff.

How can I find/make those boundaries? It seems so impossible. Sorry for any spelling mistakes.... I've been drinking since 10am, to drown out the pain and guilt of eating and styuff.

Sorry.