Hey TanGrn- Welcome to Psych Central.

I'm not so sure about being brave for writing what I did.... kind of wish I wouldn't have now! Though, it's been helpful and comforting to hear from others- which I so appreciate. I just grapple with the idea of putting myself out there! I'm very much a loner and my husband is quite involved in his career- so my support system is me, this forum and my therapist- whom I'm considering not seeing anymore. It seems to alternate between "caring " and then "indifference" with him ( my therapist) -- spose it could be how I interpret his support--- just not sure he's right for me.

You've given me much to think about- thank you, and also thanks for your thoughts and prayers. This " self-acceptance" is the ever elusive factor that seems to keep me from progressing. There are so many elements in play that I didn't divulge.... even so, I realize everyone has their " short comings/ wrong doings" that they want to rise above. Maybe I can do the same someday and be content with who I am.

I agree with you, about not being able to make everyone happy... what I need to remember is - not being able to accomplish that DOESN'T make me a loser!

I'm glad for you that you are making positive changes in your life-- that's great! Congratulations and I wish you all the best!

Thank you TanGrn,

Mandy