..I promised I'd follow up with info on what happened when I spoke to me manager (cf my post in PP)
Well, if anyone is interested I spoke with her this morning...

It went basically ok, she actually isn't concerned about my progress.
She did say though that I have been more fragile of late, than I was when she first knew me (August 2003)

I feel frustrated and disappointed though that she wanted to know when I'll be back to like I was before (before I had this depressive, anxious episode from last Autumn)....how can she assume that I'll be the same when I get through *this*. I hope to come through more mature and healthy....but I can't predict....can I?
She keeps asking what caused it....I 'blamed' my ex-group and how it affected me (I did actually leave because it wasn't helping it was harming....too much past repetition..)
But I KEEP trying to explain that I've been 'this way' all my life, its just unfreezing now...

It also annoys me that her philosophy is that its all in the past (my traumatic premature birth, being bullied, my dysfunctional family with paranoid father) and I can just say its over and done and that it'll have no affect on me any more...

If only....I DID try to tell her its not that easy...and she did admit that 10 years of being bullied at school was a bit much and someone should have done something...(which noone did..I got blamed that it was my fault...)

Is there anything I could get her to read, or that I could say so that I feel less guilty and ashamed for going through my therapeutic process????

sorrel