Thanks for all your support everyone! Don't worry, I'm not really thinking of hurting myself, it's just that I still feel a victims role to life at times where it just feels so hopeless and that my life will never change. But one of the main problems for this is me still identifying with being a victim and scared to go out and make the changes with my life that I say I want. It's still very hard for me. It sure helps to have the support of good friends like all of you. Thanks again!